sometimes, its better to make clear of our feelings

its true you know. after some thought, i think it is better for us to juz let go of our emotions when we feel like it. it doesn't just do us good, it may even alert the ppl around you that something is wrong. some problems are meant for us to face together ,not alone. some of us, like myself, tend to want to do everything by ourselves, and refuse to involve anyone else in our fucking problems, simply coz we don't want to cause trouble to others, or we juz feel weird to involve people in our problems that are totally none of their concern. this assumption, well, they are right, but at times, they may be wrong. straight to the point, assumptions are the thorns of relationships. however, there will still be people around us who cares about us, its just that we don't feel it. and seriously, it is not worth at all to change ourselves just to satisfy other ppl's comments. it is extremely sad and pathetic to do so and i think none of us should ever do this. juz be yourself and be happy. if the other people can't handle you, its their problem, not yours. if they gossip bout you, pity them, as they forgot to analyse their own degree of lameness b4 they start commenting on u =) be happy too, at least u manage to waste some of their precious time on something so insignificant. the main point is, we should retain our dignity, no matter how different or rejected we feel
friends...i duno y but..most of us tend to take our good friends for granted. its like, when u rly wana make out with this particular person, u do so many things to build that special bond between u n him/her. however, once that bond is established, we tend to not pay so much attention to it anymore, and go on seeking new ones. and the sad part is, while the bond is slowly weakening, we don't realise it. only until when we do, it's already too late. only then do we regret for the actions not taken , and the lack of awareness of what's going on around us. i guess, we just don't realise how much a paerticular bond really means to us until it is severed or broken. *sighes* there are many different kind of friends. there are the kinds who just hang out with you coz they think ur cool, those that comes close to you because they want something from you, those that hang around with you coz they feel lonely and those who are with you ,accepts and like the way u are, even thought you're just another failed experiment conducted by the higher intelligence. the 1st and 2nd type, we don't need them and we're better off without them. personally , i like the 4th type, thought the number of friends that i have categorised into that group can be counted with just less than 5 fingers. *sighs* where is the love these days? LOL
its a miracles, how 2 ppl who are complete strangers to each other, come together and become the best of friends, its depressing to c u and your best friend become complete strangers. just 1 thing la. everything in our lives, especially the relationships that we are currently having, or about to have in the future, everthing has been arranged. sometimes to become the best of friends, al u need is juz one word, according to my dear pal wen mei, is "yuan", which means fate in chinese. even gf and bf, those who have been together for ages, say, 8 years? is still capable of breaking up. simply because , thr is no "yuan " present between them. so, "yuan" is actually one of the main selection pressure which is out of our hands in this case. relationships cannot be forced,it is jut meant to go with the flow, running parallel to fate. if we try to go against it, lotsa complications will arise, just like upseting the balance of nature. when it comes to the relationships that you yearn for , it is not wrong to try, but it is better for us to give up if we realise that it will never work out, instead of straining our mental strength and endurance, causing us unecessary emotional pain and suffering that we can avoid, but in the end succumbed into because of our stubborness.
and also, i realised that it is better to have a wider range of friends, instead of just sticking to one particular group. people can change overtime and you can't be certain that a gang of friends will remain and stay together as a group forever. at least that i have other groups of friends, i dun feel as bad as last time, whr i only hang out with 1 particular group, in which i couldn't blend in very well. haih...no "yuan" ar..sad...thr will always be problems ,sooner or later, as even siblings who share almost the same DNA tend to quarrel among themselves, what more when it comes to friends? but in certain cases, we tend to become closer to our friends other than to our own brothers and sisters, and also to our parents. in fact, i feel that some friends actually makes better brothers or sisters than our vry own siblings . bwahahahaha sad isn't it? lol..its nt entirely true, but yet, u can't deny the legitimacy of this statement completely. so, think about it =)