i give up =)

i guess its too late. just too late, and too difficult to maintain. it is time to accept and trust my sixth sense. every person comes into our lives for a reason, and i guess you've served yours, and its time for us to go our separate ways. i can't say that time heals a broken heart, but time can make it better as it shifts. certain things are also better left unsaid, even if its the rite thing to do. and so, i just want you to know, 你曾经有过一个很在乎你的朋友.this chapters done, and the story goes on =) but before all this, there is one last thing i wanna do for you before it all ends. i wish you all the best in life~ cheers

hectic week

this week has been extremely hectic. had pbl presentation and the dreaded class test. on the bright side, both all done now. pbl presentation wasn't so bad. i guess i did ok. but anatomy class test, knowing me, u know la. i don't even need to check oso i know whats d outcome. but seriously, this test rly had a great impact on me. i realised that there was so many things that i didn't study for block 4. well i didn't rly studied for certain parts coz i didn't know those were included as well..could have done better if i did yeh? well, one can never tell

outrageous!

huhuhuhu...and so i went to dissection class today, listen to mr . VK talk talk talk, then suddenly i kena zha dao.. there is a test..anatomy test this thursday! omg! wtf! i forgot! and i have pbl to read up.. dipersiasuikan lah

happy fathers day

happy fathers day to my papa, the man who gave me life, the man who supported me for the past 19 years till this very day, the man who loves me unconditionally and the man who works like hell just to support me financially in this expensive course i'm taking. even though i can never tell u how much u mean to me, or how much i love you, i just want you to know that deep down inside, you're the best father one can ever hope for. and i am proud and honored for being your son. =) thank you papa, for everything that you've done for me.

i miss the city life :(

when i was back in malaysia, thr was 24 hours availability of mcdonalds. here in manipal, no sight of any, and i doubt all of them knows what the heck is mcdonalds. =.=
back home, i have a car. here, i have nothing. only auto. here, i got curfew, back home, i have freedom. sigh, boredom is getting the better of me

great song! :D

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

Because I knew you

I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the thing I've done you blame me for

But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

And because I knew you...

Because I knew you...

Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good.




look up google and search for the one sung by sam tsui and nick pitera. those 2 guys are damn good wei :D

blurr :(

CNS is draining my life force. have never been so blur b4 in my life =( sigh..study!

memories

In psychology, memory is an organism's ability to store, retain, and recall information. or in a more general manner, memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. or more poetically, memory is a child walking along a seashore. You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things. yeh the human brain and heart, u can never tell whats going on with these two. utterly impossible to read what exactly a person is feeling or thinking. speaking of memories, i had quite a lot of sweet memories when i took the time to analyse it, and so i did after my deep slumber from 6 to 10 pm :D but for now, its only that one , just that particular one that keeps on replaying in my mind. its like nah nah nah nah , everyday , like an ipod stuck on replay ~lol . so guys, treasure your memories, since its basically (or acidically if u like :D) what we all have left in the end of the day , as nothing is eternal :)

gah i really hate these random advertisement and tamil- speaking calls!

while i was having my precious sleep, and dreaming one of the best dream ever( not saying what it is about =P) , and its not like i always have the chance to dream about something good.when i was about to reach the best part of the dream, this stupid indian tempe juz had to call and spoil it. ish~ gah! then i told him wrong number, he seems blurr. then i went back to slp. few seconds later, he called again. swt drop. no choice but to turn off my phone. my sweet dream..GG-ed because of him..haih. india rly needs to sort out its advertisement methods pronto.

clockapult of time...

hahahahhaha in case any of you non- mh players are wondering, this is a trap in mh, apparently the most powerful shadow trap available, as well as the most insanely priced trap in the game. =S kay so this post is not about mh, so straight to the point.
instead of using it on the poor shadow mice of mousehunt, i'd actually like to try it on myself. time travel has always been on the mysterious side, nobody know it works , nor is it even possible. i'd like to believe its real tho. with time travel, i can travel back in time and fix past mistakes, or go to the future and see what its like. life would have been perfect then. oh and if the world really is gona end in the year 2012, i should really just quit the MBBS programme and enjoy life to the max before i go bye bye =)

i think i'm gonna be sick..

forehead is kinda hot, body feels heaty, eyes are burning..arghh...what a time to show signs of fever. all i can do is drink more water n hope the temperature will come down. chill >< i dun wana masuk hospital :(

i guess it needs time

hopefully thats the case. communicating through msn is no longer a problem, but face to face kind of convo, still....不太理想 :\ but ok lar, at least its improving. really shouldn't be too optimistic, but can't be too pessimistic either. just need to find time for a heart to heart talk, but when?

random

Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you.


nothing to do wif me, just some lyrics that i find pretty meaningful. most of you should know which song its from (:

i'm lying to myself...

i told myself that i can live with all the changes that come, beat down all the challenges that stand in my way. nothing matters more than my studies. yeh, these are what i used to tell myself. they have never failed me, not at least, till now. i want things to be like they were in the beginning , i've always hoped for it , even though i always denied that i can't live with it. my mind tells me something, but my heart says otherwise. they never click, and i dunno what i can do. despite the fact how strong and bold i act to be, deep down inside, i'm just a weak, emotional ,helpless kid , waiting for a miracle to happen, when my fairy tale will somehow materialise, and return the joy i once had, but lost.

do you know

that feeling that makes your stomach sink,your heart beat so fast it could explode,your eyes wanting to shed tears but you hold them back with all your might?thats what I feel when I lost someone special but it felt like what I had to do :( no point hiding it anymore. he or she will never know

真没用

不知不觉。。。我的眼泪就这样的留下来。。。我到底在执着什么？为什么我一直那么在乎？都已走上绝路了， 为什么我还不放弃？ 唉， 累了累了。。。 鸡蛋糕 :(

感情有很多种

这是 yoke fun 讲的。我觉得我对你的感情只是一个弟弟对哥哥的关怀罢了。就那么简单。 时间久了， 我学会看开很多东西。。也许两个之前要好的朋友缘分已绝， 注定要各走各路。。不过， 要放下一切， 不是一件容易的事。 需要很大的勇气和毅力， 还有一段很长的时间。我现在也不去希望什么了， 不去希望你会原谅或谅解， 或者再次接受我们这段友情。你对我不理不采， 都无所谓,因为这都是我一手造成的。是我的错， 我没资格嫌弃。我现在能做和想做的就是做出补偿，以减轻我心里的内疚感。 或许久了， 我的心会慢慢的死去， 也许，是一件好事。

happiness = reality - expectations

too little too late

after reading jordan's status, i felt that my mistake was that i never really took the effort or action to show yew shiong how much i appreciate what he has done for me before. i wonder y is it so difficult to just say a thank you or a "i'm lucky to have you a friend" kinda thing. the cause? probably pride. sigh..should have done that. and the sulking continues...