Saturday, July 31, 2010

random fact~

Don't worry about what people say behind your back, they are the people who are finding faults in your life instead of fixing the faults in their own life.

Friday, July 30, 2010

rushing for time~

time waits for no one..this is true. its been a week since blocks, and now thr is just 2 weeks left before we are to face the uni exams. hope that buddha will bless me and give me mental stability during the exams, especially during anatomy. all in all, hope that i will survive and move on successfully into year 2. =)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

today exam results out~

hmmmm...as expected anatomy was terrible. physio was the middle of the 3 and distinction for biochemistry. now i can just leave my biochem aside and focus on anatomy. but the good news is, all pass la :) aiyer, but i still kenot accept, the subject which i studied the most for i did the worst, and the one i read finish in one day i got the highest that i have ever got for it out of the 4 blocks. wtf?

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

sigh...mental distraction at the library~ :(

simply because i saw someone i didn't want to see...y is manipal so small? today accomplished so little. sigh...at this rate my unis is so gonna be another case of wtf

Sunday, July 25, 2010

unproductive :(

today i failed to finish block 2 biochem..sigh..have to work harder. gambateh ~

Friday, July 23, 2010

if only i knew how to appreciate the things i have before i lost them :(

i'm really never good at appreciating what i have in front of me. i tend to seek more of the things that i want instead of learning to love and care for the nice people around me. why am i like this ? honestly this isn't the 1st time. and every time i failed miserably. its certainly a very bad habit to have. can't seem to change it. always taking people for granted. and when problems arise all i do is whine whine whine. sigh, when will i ever learn? is there anything that i can do to gain back what i have lost? if i wasn't so ego, so face- conscious, i would have had it back. but no, i flunked it. i was selfish, demanding , obsolete and on top of all, foolish. and so when i say to others around me that i don't care about "them" anymore, deep down inside, i;ll always do. no one needs to know the truth, since it certainly won't change a single thing. coz its just too little too late~

random~

sometimes its not a matter of want or don't want, but a matter of can or cannot. in my case, its not that i don't want to, its simply because i can't ~

to go or not to go

i'm debating with myself, to go or not to go to mangalore 2mr. i wanna have fun after the blocks, but the thought of unis in 3 weeks time made me think twice. on the otherhand, i duno if anyone else wanna go also. well i more or less can guess who went today >< hmmmmm, so...to go or not to go...

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

mampus

anatomy was a bitch :( but i think i will pass (: but man that paper is really horrible >< not to mention mind block during the tensed state. haih...history repeats itself again..wtf

Friday, July 16, 2010

anatomy spotters~

everytime after an anatomy spotters exam, depression follows. at least for me it is, knowing that anatomy is my weakest subject. made some silly mistakes that i render unforgivable, and a lil error here and there , hmmmmmm....no need to say anything dy..pass is one thing, i'm not concerned about that, but being able to do better but losing and failing to do so is just hard on the limbic system :( sigh~ on the bright side, it is the last spotters for the blocks... last one is d unis , and voila, freedom (: i shall await that day, eagerly..

Thursday, July 15, 2010

i'm so freaking blur =.="

guess what, my "lost" pencilcase has been in my bag all these while..i forgot that there is a special compartment somewhere tat is not very obvious of course. bah humbug! :(

Sunday, July 11, 2010

denial~ :(

sometimes i don't know why i even bothered asking, since i already know no matter how many times i try, the answer will always be a "NO" . crying over spilled milk is what i do, and hell am i good at it.

Friday, July 9, 2010

scorpio ~ :D

The Scorpio personality is a sign that has been studied for years. The persistence of these studies have concluded on several traits the Scorpio possesses. Among these traits are several positive qualities, which make this sign a powerful one in the world of astrology.

The Scorpio, which is considered the water sign is symbolized by the scorpion. Scorpio’s are strong, deep, mysterious, complex, and also secretive. They love to unveil the mysteries of life, and are usually very emotional, often keeping their own deepest mysteries and trials to themselves. Their emotions are often hidden or disguised by strength and motivation.

One trait of the Scorpio personality is that of an achiever, striving to succeed, and do well in life. They are often an influence of leadership and play important roles in the lives of people surrounding them. Scorpio’s are determined and often very passionate, causing them to be exciting and magnetic to other people. In other words, they are extremely likeable for their intuitive traits.

Scorpios are considered the most profound and intense characters in the zodiac. They may appear to calm and self controlling, but in reality they are actually very emotional individuals. The Scorpio personality is unlike any astrologically designed persona. Although it is extremely powerful, without the persistency of their own self discipline, they are more susceptible to pain. And when there is pain present, Scorpio’s feel it like no other because they are so deep.

Scorpio’s are often very powerful in the lives of the people they know and love. Their traits can be used in extremely positive manors or the exact opposite. Their strong emotionalism can often be responsible for acts that are only beneficial to themselves. In other words, at times the Scorpio personality may show severe signs of selfishness. The immense intensity that is shared by Scorpio’s can either be a good thing or a flaw, but can definitely prove to be an asset when times are hard.

Often showing an extreme sense of calmness and stability, Scorpio’s are infamous for holding their emotions within. Thus, they appear calm and stable, but could really be ready to burst at any moment. This trait can often lead to extreme actions and impulsiveness, which might be categorized as a negative trait.

Scorpio’s are considered to be gifted. Their high striving minds are often incapable of accepting failure. Thus, Scorpio’s are often more likely to succeed in their goals and dreams. There persistence in achieving their goals is considered to be one of the many positive traits of the Scorpio personality. They are often intrigued with finding a higher, deeper meaning for life.

Scorpio’s prove to be excellent friends. They are loyal and committed to their companions and are often vital roles in the lives of the one’s who love them. They are also extremely passionate lovers, but tend to be more complicated in the world of romance. The typical Scorpio believes in commitment and even marriage, usually only involving themselves with one partner at a time. Although, the Scorpio personality is one that will cherish the true aspects of love, they are more susceptible to receiving a broken heart because of their emotional traits.



olala~ gotta say that this is pretty true for me :) though i don't like the last sentence but oh well (:

Monday, July 5, 2010

random





I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone....

one practical down, 2 more to go~

physiology pracs is over and out! :D now left the anatomy spotters and biochemistry OSPE. hehehe..knowing me, biochem poses no threat..but anatomy..well duh, i'm as good as dead. X( physiology overall was ok, except for the performance station. felt so stupid when performing it and i was just blurr when mr bharati and jay prakesh asked me some weird questions..well..its over for now..theres histology spotters on wednesday ,and yeh, haven't started >< today i'll read anatomy, and 2mr i'll do histology. will i be able to make it? hope so :)

Saturday, July 3, 2010

morning! :D

today i woke up early, yes, very early. 2 am :D hehe oh well, i'm officially a nocturnal individual now. only active at night, unlike most people. today juz gonna rush my physio prac and speed read through everything in the book. its a do or die situation ><
oh yeh, yesterday was the supremo ball. of coz, i didn't go la. those kind of events never really suited me in the 1st place, all the formal wear, dress code, bleh~ leceh sangat. besides, i dun have coat of anything also, if go oso will wear casualso u know =D dun wanna be the black sheep of the ball. hehehe but after looking through those pics, a bit regret didn't go la. tho its not a big deal, at least if i went oso can experience something new, since i never attended any before. huhuhuhu..but then, i'm glad oso tat i didn't go, coz there are some ppl tat i don't wanna meet went for it too. so i guess its a blessing in the end LOL

ks, enuf crap. ciaoz

Friday, July 2, 2010

tension...oh exams! the horror, the horror!

2 weeks more to the bladdy blocks , and yet my "beloved" mmmc still is having lectures on nxt week. pls la, i nid time to revise all the facts and knowledge u ppl from the 3 departments trying so hard to push into this big head of mine. too bad it only looks big, inside capacity very small, the rest all fibrous tissues X( HAHAHAHA..what am i crapping about here ? (:
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i'm nervous! i haven't really started serious revision yet. and yes i am very very scared :( ooooo helpless to be exact. oh gods from all cultures and continents, bless me with your powers. kill this plague named laziness( indolence sounds nicer, classy eh?) and bestow me with the strength to conquer the uni exams. namoamitabha, hallelujah, alhamdullilah , tolonggggggggggggggggggg >< kays thats enuf for today. i'll shut up now (: