Thursday, December 31, 2009

continued...

but then manusia oso greedy la, want to exploit some 20 million dollars/ kg mineral. so dua dua pihak pun ada masalah mentality. manusia tamak, avatar bodoh =.= the gal say u betrayed me bla bla to the guy , then ,the wheel chair guy hor, to prove his loyalty to the avatar, went n tamed a burung besar called a taruk( noob name, i know). weird lo, coem with the burung, the avatar stairght away all become his anjing ..sweat..the gal pulak, in this case, the burung is liek an avatar version of a perfect marriage gift, just bawa burung ,everything solved. the followed by soem bla bla, whr finally manusia n avatar lawan . this part quite ok la, i'd say its the best part of the whole movie.as expected, avatar menang n manusia kena banished from the planet. then finally the wheel chair guys soul kena transfered to his avatar permanently, n the credits roll..haiz.... noob rite? 40 rupees gone juz liek tat, but overall, at least the graphics made up for its pathetic storyline. i'd give it a 5 /10 , not bad but not gud either. hahahaha spend too much time writing all these nonsense, rly gotta go now XD ciaoz ppl ^^ n a happy new year =)

happy new year!!!



time flies, its already the last day of 2009....i gotta say that this year has been a blast, compared to 2008. 2009 actually marks the beginning of my medical career, the start of a whole new journey in life. tho now i'm still having doubts wether i should stay or leave, i'm adjusting pretty well compared to what i expected,now that it has been 3 months since i've been here. homesickness doesn't seem to be so haunting anymore(no more crying on the phone or crying while skyping, memang memalukan..isshhh), after all, v all have to leave home 1 day and make the best out of our existense on earth. i believe that everyone have their own purpose in life, and hopefully 2010 will be a great year for all of us to strive for excellence. and also, i got my 3rd parcel today!! happy happy XDXD unfortunately, one of the can of lychees bocor dy, damn wasted, haih... but luckily my favorite japanese treats remain intact and not smashed up. my jacob biscuits...haih..dun want to talk bout it dy..say liaw damn sad le.. this time mummy sent me heaps of maggi mee tiam. looks like i'll be eating maggi mee for the nxt few months. gotta save money la, no choice. >.< and also, i think my habits of not eating breakfast n lunch has start to reveal its remnants le... sorta having pain in the stomach liaw >.< omggg kenot kenot i dun 1 to get gastric !! the whole thing is just too much to bear. went through it b4 during standard 6, n believe me ,it was horrible >.<
hmmm i think not much dy le... juz hope that nxt year will be a new start for everyone, n i will try to change myself for the beta good ( haih, if not, how to survive la in medical sch..isshh), try not to isolate myself,try not to show muka masam, try not to emo etc etc.. but then, i memang the kind of ppl who don't give a damn bout the things surrounding me( haih, memang masalah besar, tak peduli, sendiri rugi..haiz)..duno la..i 'm the kind of ppl that will not make the 1st move, be it antara kawan, or dengan gf..haih..tats y sentiasa lonely.enuf of this nonsense, emo too much liaw. kekekeke anyway hope everyone have a memoriable last day of the year 2009 and also have an amazing, fantastic, marvellous and most importantly, meaningful year ahead.

and b4 i ended my pile of nonsense, i would liek to comment a lil on the movie avatar..seriously wei, that movie..is worse than cancer( u dun wana know y i refer it to that). the fron t part was like ..erm erm ok ok, so so ony. with a guy on a wheel chair, finally boleh jalan when the ppl use some weird looking MRI like machine to transfer his consciousness into his avatar, lepas tu kena sent to some earth like moon n got separated from his pack bla bla bla. then he met another avatar, a female, native of the planet, n bla bla bla the usual stuff, brought him back to her tribe, sentuh sini sentuh sana, and ask the gal to teach him their ways. predictable much? haih...then it goes bla bla bla, followed by bla bla bla and finally , the mostpredictabe part, sad to say, most american animated films oways have this ending, as i was saying , they ended up doing the ahem ahem together. (yalah, berzina, the gal was supposed to be engaged dy). then bla bla humans attack, the tribes refuse to back off, millitary use firearm, avatar use arrows, spears etc) come on la ..plss.. as if they have any chance of winning with their pathetic weapons, akhirnya, 0 manusia mati n countless avatar mati, but wat to do, blame themsleves for their own stupidity >.

Friday, December 25, 2009

my friend sent this to me, had to post it coz its kinda true about life

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, ' I love you ' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

random

You might like it. This is hilarious... ..even an Englishman could not construct sentences using numeric, which is exclusive only to Malaysians and Singaporeans.


Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.
Not only did he do it 1 to 10 , he did it again from 10 back to 1. This is what he came up with.....

1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me.. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7 -eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away.

10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7 -eleven. Next day I called my
boss and told him I was 6 . He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work.
He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1 .

Thursday, December 24, 2009

it gets worse.....

i've haven't rly been quite myself for the past 2 weeks, and it seem to have worsen over the past week, whr i was emoing to the point that it has started to affect my priority (my academic performance), my performance was bad. plain bad. i duno how am i gonna deal with anatomy with the nxt few blocks to come. life have been so meaningless, so empty and so vague eversince i came here. i seriously duno wat is wrong with myself. i dun even know whether picking this course was ever the right decision for me as frankly speaking i dun think i have any of the good qualities that makes a good doctor. i'm so lost, so lonely, going mad, hysterical. i duno how long i can keep up with this, one day i will fall, only time will tell...telling mum will only make her worry, dad 's not gonna be bothered, as he always say, " all u need to do is study, nothing else" . me "=.=""

Loneliness is a feeling where people experience a powerful surge of emptiness and solitude. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another . Loneliness is more like feeling empty, unwanted, and unnecessary. wikipedia's definition says it all, tats what i'm feeling now. i duno y i tend to stay away from ppl around me. sometimes i even ask myself, y do i do things that will eventually lead to my own isolation and misery? not to say nobody understands me, even i dun understand myself. but to be frank, my family really haven't paid much attention to my personal development, mentally, dun get me wrong, they're good, education and materialistically, but what i need more than that is juz more attention , someone to talk to, someone in which i can share every little secret with,and not keeping all the pain i'm experiencing inside me, but sad to say..my parents know very little about me, especially my dad, he can't even remember how old i was this year. talk about family huh? SWT
but yet, i know my isolation i due to my own doing, its not tat i want to, its just tat i can't help it. thr is always this kinda barrier between me and the ppl around, i want to talk to them, but i couldn't make the 1st move. sometimes it got me thinking , if u have a sucky personality, it is possible for you to have a bunch of frenz by being yourself, or u have to assume another personality, a "shell" which is not rly u at all to feel accepted, and liked? pathetic... its juz plain pathetic. needless to say anything more. have u ever went through this kind of process b4? think about it. as for myself, i'll probably continue ASPD-ing, as i can't seem to find the key to break free from this "cage" i'm kept in.but who knows, i might break free one day. or i'm be whr i am foever, again, only time will tell. and merry christmas to all the folks out thr, tho i'll probably be alone throughout the holidays, owning to my inability to open up myself to others. and whoever who took their precious time to read my load of crap, u have my utmos gratitude.

Monday, November 30, 2009

End Point =)

I've actually developed a love for that place XD the environment is rly soothing, with the green field and fresh air, a perfect spot ot relax and study. hahahaha. i went thr today around 4pm, had a nap on the bench for an hour and went back to the hostels at around 6.20pm. of course i also had the chance to study physiology thr for about an hour b4 i dozed off. i muz have been like an idiot sleeping on the bench in the field. those uncles and aunties thr juz couldn't keep their eyes off me. *perasaning* XD hehe probably coz i'm putih n they're hitam :P wheeeeeeeeeee aku putihhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. hahaha that's it for today ^^

Saturday, November 28, 2009

confused :(

sometimes, i dun even know myself. i duno y i feel the way i felt, and y i do the things i do. perhaps i'm just too naive into thinking life is just too simple as it is, and yet i know its complicated. such hyprocracy . being emo has wat i have ben doin for the past few weeks, i duno. i duno . i duno wat i'm doin >.< am now in a dilemma. choosing manipal over monash, or the other way round. seriously, i dunno what is my nxt step. but most of all it comes rite down to my personal and emotional probs. i'm struggling with these unnecessary reasons for me to be emo, and sometimes because of that, i lose concentration over my studies, and may even ended up screwing up my relationship with ppl dear to me. and the thing is , i don't have anyone in which i can tell these to. all my close frenz are not online most of the time when i need them the most. i know they're busy, so thats perfectly understood. i'm sorta used to goin through all these on my own. anyway, i always thought that having a person in which i can tell these things to would be great. need to relieve some of the tensions and stress that i'm having. gawd that's enuf of emoing for 1 day. that's it for now XD

block 1 exam finish XD play hard sampai mati :D

today i had the time of my life. had the very 1st experience of watching movie in the indian cinema, which turn out to be quite unexpectingly enjoyable =) tho the popcorn sux( yea it taste like expired twisties). got up early at around 8.30 am to prepare and make way for mangalore =) 2012 was really a great mv, the visual effects and all....100% recommend to viewers. u won't be dissappointed :P might be goin to some waterfall 2mr, if it the plan goes thru. anyways, tats it for now

i can't believe i'm doing this XD

i'm blogging. gawd!!! seriously didn't think this would ever happen. guess i just have too much time to waste, or more precisely, find time to waste XD kinda new to this stuff so ermmm blog's gonna be pretty plain for some time :P anyways enjoy reading and sharing the sweets and sours of my life .