what i'll do

i'll make an effort, to solve my problems. i'll be bolder, more courageous, think less and be more optimistic. i won't keep the things i want to say for too long a time, i will say them when i want to. hesistance, i curse it. no longer will i let it be an obstacle any further. i had enough mental torture for the past few months, am not gonna go through those horible periods any more as long as i can help it.

and so, i'm gonna just say it, just do it, just go for it and let fate decide the rest. after all, alot of things are out of our control rite? all we can do is just put and effort and hope for things to get better. if it doesn't change anything, just try harder. if it still doesn't budge, then it isn't meant to be. its only rite to accept the inevitable, instead of constantly drifting with hope~ but all i can do now is initiate, be nice and hope for nothing in return. and really, i hope that it will all go back to the way it was few months ago.