writing poems = emo moments..aihhh

                                                                   TRUTH



Once in your life you make the friends that are true
 Nothing else matters except what's between them and you
You and I both started off like any normal friends,
 But neither of us expected what would become of us today .


I remember the early days we would do a lot of things together
from baking, guitar, photography
 or just hanging out,
and it pains me to know that these are just mere memories.


 over time i can feel that we are drifting apart
 we don't text or call because it ain't our norm
 when i saw you with your new found gang
all i can do was to just stop and stare.



I tried to save what i hold dear to me
 this friendship that i hold so sacred and no doubt adored
 i went a long way to let you know how much you mean to me
 but the outcome didn't turn out like i hoped for


 I missed the times when we used to be able to spend time together
 for what seemed so easy to come by before has become so difficult to have
 i held back and so did you
and now i'm paying the price


calling you a friend would be an understatement
 because you mean much more than that
so i always called you my brother,
 because that' s how much you mean to me


 i tried to give you the best i can
i tried to help you in every way that i could
 i'm sorry if i derranged along the way
 because hurting you was never on my list.


 i was sad when you misunderstood me wrongly
accusing me of being the way you perceive me to be
 despite countless attempts to reassure you
 all efforts ended in vain


things can only get worse as time goes by
we pass by as if we never saw each other
 we try to avoid each other in every way possible
 and this is the outcome


 so many misunderstandings and problems left unattended
 i was mad at you for not telling me of their existense
 but i was angrier at myself
 for not realizing what they were sooner


 I gave my all to prevent you from getting hurt
 but still it caused you problems and pain
 i can't apologize enough
 because i've failed to protect you even though i tried


and then the inevitable happened
the incident that changed us forever
i wished that i never asked you
 for it was too much a price to pay for a favor so small



 i'm sorry that i have sounded selfish and unreasonable
 because i did not get the full picture due to my carelessness
what i did only made matters worse
and i still regret it till this very day


 i don't expect you to believe me
 for it is as ridiculous as it sounds
 but here i assure you
every word i tell you is genuine and true


 i should have been more understanding
 i should have been more sensitive
 i should have been less calculative
 but that is almost too late to regret now


 i don't give a damn what other say about me,
or what they say about you
 for all that i know
our friendship  involves only both of us


i used to dread over what i should have done
or what i shouldn't have
 but the only important thing now is
 that i correct my mistakes and treat you well

 i don't know what's going on in your mind
 whether you've given up hope or not
 but until the day you tell me its over
 i will cling on to that slight hope that things will turn out fine


 i'm just a human and i make mistakes
 i can't be a perfect friend to you
 but what i promise you is
 i will try my best to make it up to you


 whatever that holds for us in the future
 whether you'll be an important part of my life like you've always been
or slowly fade away like the morning mist
 though i wish that day will never come


 it's allright if you hate me ,
 but should the outcome turn out to be the latter,
 one thing is for sure
 i'll never forget you