the truth

there were time i felt like quiting , there were times i felt like just running away from here. from this dread place called manipal. many pals kononnye.. my foot! ish~ okay enuf of being rude..
i seriously need a break la. really..i'm not joking. i need time to come to terms with my emotions, to clear my mind and to rearrange everything back into order..but, i juz don't have the time. my packed schedule of this ridiculous course i'm taking doesn't permit it. classes even on saturdays..i dunno how i even managed to put up with that for so long. if i knew, trust me, i wouldn't have chosen manipal. period. no holidays or more holidays when there should be, well call me a spoilt malaysian brat, i don't care. i want my holidays, i need my holidays! because without my holidays, i emo! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =(

长痛不如短痛

sometimes, all i wanted u to say is " its over between us". at least 我会对你彻底的死心。dun wana hurt anymore..sigh

i'm happy :D

its a really stupid reason. but it sure did mean a lot to me =) so who cares, thats it, i'm happy! wakaka

HAHHAHAAHAHAHAHA

i feel so silly! hahahaha yup i'm laughing at myself :D ignore me pls

today....

results came out!! >.< but then, i did ok la. pass anatomy, and distinction for physiology and biochemistry. hehe i'm kinda happy wif my biochem actually, for the fact that i rushed it juz within 1 day. tho ngam ngam distinction ony but..its still distinction la :D well at least there is finally something to be happy about. motivated for now :)

humans...

In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make..

another fact that applies to most of us. and i'm no exception lol

from me to you~

when i was lonely,sad and lost,
you were there to give me the companionship i so desperately needed,
since then,
we became better,closer friends.

i'll never forget the time spent with you,
you're so much fun to be with,
and you're such a good person,
i see you more like a brother than a friend.


being a boy,
expressing emotions was never my kinda thing,
it was difficult ,
to show even the slightest appreciation, and gratitude towards you.


but something happened in the midst of temporal shift,
i changed,
since then things were different,
and i doubt it'll ever be the same again.


i never knew how much you meant to me,
until you walked away,
sadness was all i felt,
till this very day.

while you've been gone,
a part of me has been lost,
it's like i've taken our friendship for granted,
and now i'm paying the cost.

there are times i tried so hard to forget,
i know i must, in order to move on
but every attempt,
was an epic failure.

when i think about the relationship we once shared,
it was awesome, but we lost it,
its not possible for me,
not to care.

words can't describe how sorry i am,
or how regretful i felt,
nor can it describe,
how important you have become to me in such a short period of time.

i do not seek forgiveness nor acceptance,
for after what i did,
i know,
i do not deserve.

they say time heals a broken heart,
but time stood still since we've been apart,
i may mean nothing to you,
but you'll always be special to me.


i shall therefore, be satisfied,
that you must simply know,
just how I feel about you,
for with words I cannot show.



this is for you yew shiong, and just for you. you'll always b my dearest kor kor, no matter what that happens between us. for i owed you just too much , and i can never forget 你对我的恩情 =）