sigh...mental distraction at the library~ :(

simply because i saw someone i didn't want to see...y is manipal so small? today accomplished so little. sigh...at this rate my unis is so gonna be another case of wtf

unproductive :(

today i failed to finish block 2 biochem..sigh..have to work harder. gambateh ~

if only i knew how to appreciate the things i have before i lost them :(

i'm really never good at appreciating what i have in front of me. i tend to seek more of the things that i want instead of learning to love and care for the nice people around me. why am i like this ? honestly this isn't the 1st time. and every time i failed miserably. its certainly a very bad habit to have. can't seem to change it. always taking people for granted. and when problems arise all i do is whine whine whine. sigh, when will i ever learn? is there anything that i can do to gain back what i have lost? if i wasn't so ego, so face- conscious, i would have had it back. but no, i flunked it. i was selfish, demanding , obsolete and on top of all, foolish. and so when i say to others around me that i don't care about "them" anymore, deep down inside, i;ll always do. no one needs to know the truth, since it certainly won't change a single thing. coz its just too little too late~

random~

sometimes its not a matter of want or don't want, but a matter of can or cannot. in my case, its not that i don't want to, its simply because i can't ~

to go or not to go

i'm debating with myself, to go or not to go to mangalore 2mr. i wanna have fun after the blocks, but the thought of unis in 3 weeks time made me think twice. on the otherhand, i duno if anyone else wanna go also. well i more or less can guess who went today >< hmmmmm, so...to go or not to go...

mampus

anatomy was a bitch :( but i think i will pass (: but man that paper is really horrible >< not to mention mind block during the tensed state. haih...history repeats itself again..wtf

anatomy spotters~

everytime after an anatomy spotters exam, depression follows. at least for me it is, knowing that anatomy is my weakest subject. made some silly mistakes that i render unforgivable, and a lil error here and there , hmmmmmm....no need to say anything dy..pass is one thing, i'm not concerned about that, but being able to do better but losing and failing to do so is just hard on the limbic system :( sigh~ on the bright side, it is the last spotters for the blocks... last one is d unis , and voila, freedom (: i shall await that day, eagerly..